Once again, as I tap the keyboard of my laptop and gather all the undefined emotions in my heart and mind, I once again hear the defeaning silence I keep talking about in this blog. Once again, I feel lonely… One of the loneliest I have ever felt.
I feel bad for being the person I no longer am, for being the person they thought who I was, and for being the person they all want me to become. And most of all I feel bad for myself… For being alone.
Of course, I couldn’t put the blame on them. It’s all my fault. I have been so selfish in the past, I believe I deserve all these… Loneliness and pain.
It’s heartbreaking that this once joyful girl that used to be filled with hope has succumbed herself to misery. It’s heartbreaking to acknowledge the fact that I have given up and lost sight of hope.
I no longer know where this blog entry is going to nor how will I end it… So I’ll end it the way Parokya ni Edgar ended their song, “The Yes Yes Show”. -Bigla na lang mawawala.
10:43pm
♡, Fifa
(Source: lalaloveletters)
